Several people have now reminded me that "I don't have a job" I realize this, as it is a part of my life. Telling me this does not change anything. Its like walking up to someone and saying, Yer Poor... or Yer Ugly. What is even more annoying is hen they deem that this status makes you inferior, such as: you didn't work today so you should do everything I say. the problem with this attitude is that, as usual I lose either way. When I'm in school and have no time, I get yelled at (with few exceptions) that I don't do anything around the house; but when I'm not working/schooling, I get yelled at for not working, regardless of the fact that I do 99.999992345635629600098% of what I'm asked and I volunteer practically everyday to do what is needed. This constant "not good enough" status that has been so expressly bequeathed upon me is not only annoying and demeaning... its wrong and it pisses me off.
I came to a realization the other day, this is my last summer to dick around. Next year I will actually have to start developing a life outside of academics and breaks. So I have decided to make the best of whatever I can and to try and stop worrying about life for awhile.
